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 Bitch had it coming. I've been emotionally stressed this couple of weeks. I couldn't think straight. I did stupid things. I've strayed. Oh god. I didn't do well for the job interview. Guess I'm stuck here forever. To get the job is everything to me. I would sell my soul if I had to. This job is so important to me. But well, they found someone else better than me. I wasted my time training my speeches, my attitude, how am I gonna behave. I even wasted RM 300 for the clothes that I planned to wear for the interview. This broke my heart into pieces. You know why? Because all this while I've never been happy. Let's say for what I've asked from god, He never answered. I feel down. I'm starting to question myself. What have I done that I deserved all this bad lucks? Am I really that bad? I thought I was a good girl. But everything and everyone's like turning their back on me. Better be boys, my love life, my job, my everything. This is so pathetic. I really thought that this job will be a platform for me to break through. To be what I wanna be. But I guess God's forbid. Oh god. I don't know how much tears I've dried up. I feel so useless. I think my episodic depression is coming through. Just the self harm haven't come yet. Oh, I really wanted that job. Guess I will forever be a loser. I will never achieve what I wanted. I always wanted that job. |