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 Bitch had it coming. I've been emotionally stressed this couple of weeks. I couldn't think straight. I did stupid things. I've strayed. Oh god. I didn't do well for the job interview. Guess I'm stuck here forever. To get the job is everything to me. I would sell my soul if I had to. This job is so important to me. But well, they found someone else better than me. I wasted my time training my speeches, my attitude, how am I gonna behave. I even wasted RM 300 for the clothes that I planned to wear for the interview. This broke my heart into pieces. You know why? Because all this while I've never been happy. Let's say for what I've asked from god, He never answered. I feel down. I'm starting to question myself. What have I done that I deserved all this bad lucks? Am I really that bad? I thought I was a good girl. But everything and everyone's like turning their back on me. Better be boys, my love life, my job, my everything. This is so pathetic. I really thought that this job will be a platform for me to break through. To be what I wanna be. But I guess God's forbid. Oh god. I don't know how much tears I've dried up. I feel so useless. I think my episodic depression is coming through. Just the self harm haven't come yet. Oh, I really wanted that job. Guess I will forever be a loser. I will never achieve what I wanted. I always wanted that job. Hari cuti ni nak dekat pula raya, apa lagi? Cuci brushes lah yg dah lama berkarat penuh foundation tu. hihi. Ok, tips untuk kesayangan semua. Bukan semua oragn ada brush eggs kan? Alah, bende alah yg bentuk macam telur tu. Yang permukaannya berbiji-biji. Tujuannye untuk gosok brushes so it will cleanse off easily tu? OK, I am one of them. Leceh. Tak pernah beli pun. Sebab? Ntah lah. Tak pernah terfikir nak beli. So, alternatifnye? Ambil lego adik yg agak besar sikit. Gunakan untuk cuci brushes. So, jimatkan dekat situ? So, let's take a look at all my brushes and beauty blender yang dah berkarat tu.
Memang penat sikit nak cuci and gosok every piece of your brushes. Tapi kita still kena cuci jugak tau dearies because mesti tak nakkan our face naik jerawat bagai. Ada banyak bakteria tau so why not take your time to cuci semua brushes and tools you all for makeup. Tak rugi pun dear. Ciao! Agak lama jugak aku meyepi. Agak lama jugak aku tak menulis. Okay beauties. Aku bukan nak membebel macam2. Just nak bagi tahu, malam ni sayu sungguh aku rasa. Tak tahu lah mengapa. Sedang orang lain bersama-sama meluangkan masa dengan family tercinta, aku tersadai di tempat kerja mencari rezeki. Sungguh. Sekarang juga aku rasa nak angkat kaki pulang ke rumah. Tapi. Kerja. Noktah. Okay enough with that. Malam ni pergi kerja ada satu perasaan membuak-buak nak mengenakan makeup. Sedangkan sebelum ni aku cukup malas nak pakai makeup kalau kerja malam. Yelah, kerja malam dah lah sorang sorang. Takkan nak bermakeup pulak. Tapi tonight, it's for the sake of my satifasction. Aku watched Kathleen Lights punye channel petang tadi and sungguh aku jatuh cinta dengan makeup look dia, using Anastasia what aku tak ingat. Aku dah apply it to my face, and what can I say. Kathleen, you're the queen. Cantik sungguh. Mungkin esok aku akan upload the look kot. Malam ni malas pulak nak connect usb masukkan pic dlm macbook. Tomorrow ok dearies? Promise. Ciao! |
